She won't tell me anything! Secretive, huh?

This post is not about not telling people anything, it's about secretiveness. Which is sort of not telling people anything. Not always. Sorry I just accidentally published it, but it doesn't matter. Anyway, I remember when I used to be secretive... I never posted any pictures, I never really said my true emotions- but now I do. And you were probably sitting at your computer screen saying "I wonder what Cari looks like" if you don't know me. But now I am a lot more open- plus I've revealed myself.

Another picture of me! Why not- I'm not so secretive anymore...

Sometimes, people trigger your curiosity by being secretive. They whisper and you see them, and you wonder "what are they whispering about? Is is about me? Is it about her? Are they discussing an exclusive event? Are they gossiping or spreading rumours?" I could go on. Millions of questions surge into your head all at once, so many that you have an "overload" like a light bulb and don't say anything. A light bulb also goes out when there is too much power. But I've already previously blogged about light bulbs so I will try and stop now.

I guess, sometimes I am secretive. I don't want people to know some things. I could post a huge secret and even some of my closest friends would be shocked. But I won't- I'm still a bit secretive. Then again, I never wanted to post pictures of myself at first...

Cari (if there are any words which should have capital letters but don't, my keyboard isn't being as responsive as usual. Sorry).

In the Long Run/ Missing out

As I have already explained, me smiling!

Sorry about the title, it does display a certain amount of indecisiveness. But back to business. I am posting this because I am meant to be at a party, but as I have exams coming up very soon (as in this Wednesday soon) I can't go. And you can see how I'm missing out. I walked home with everyone else for about half of the way, though, so at least I got to join in a bit. That's where the long run comes in. I would have loved to go, but if I stay at home and revise, it will be more beneficial in the long run. Or the short run, as all the exams are over in February. So,this is what I can do...think ahead (yep, the long run again) and know that I am doing work for my exams and also think that there'll be other parties, or carry on sniffling for quite a long time. I mean, there will be loads of other parties but I get one shot at this exam. As I am feeling quite gloomy and sad, I will put a photo of me smiling! Hopefully that will give me something to grin about again (smiling is very contagious. It could even be classified a disease that comes and goes too quickly, that everyone wants to get).

Cari- I'm sorry that this was a bit strange, but it's what I felt like posting- A real life situation that everyone can relate to.

In case you were wondering....



This is what I look like! :-)
I just felt like adding a face to my blog.







 

There are so many paths in life...

I could use a map.

Oh, and, er, which one do I take?

I know that sounds strange, but it's true, everyone would benefit from a map telling you exactly what to do.
There is a map, but it is split into peices. All the people who care about you and guide you have a peice. some peices are bigger than others. They all give you their peices (sometimes slowly, sometimes quickly), until you have the whole map. Sometimes, without realizing, you have a peice as well. Or a few.

A strange metaphor, but I believe that it's true.
Or think of it this way......
When you are born, you enter a large, confusing forest. Your aim is to get out of the forest. Along your life, you encounter many different routes. Sometimes, you just have to guess which one to take, sometimes you make logical guesses. Sometimes you ignore logic, and that can either get you into a good or bad situation. You also find many other people along the way. They can either help you or put you off your path. The people who get out live the rest of their lives happily and with a sense of acheivement. Those who are overwhelmed by this maze of a forest, and believe they will never get out, die in the forest, never having sensed acheivement before- they never know when they are on the right path. Those who have confidence they will get out do, unless they boast this and take advantage of their confidence.

This map/forest idea bounced into my head and has relentlessly taken up my thoughts, so I  decided to blog about it- not just that, but I like the idea anyway.

Hope you liked my post!- Cari.

You can find hope anywhere.

I have recently been feeling very hopeful. This koala speaks for me here- look into his eyes. I can just see the hope and innocence in his eyes- I hope you can as well because I find this photo striking. It is very, very cute, and speaks a thousand words. I have been looking and looking at it and...it is so abundant in hope.

I believe that hope can be found anywhere- In a tough situation, in light, in a koala's eyes, anywhere. This is the aim of the koala- to show that light can be found at the end of even the darkest, dankest tunnnel. It's the sort of picture that makes you tilt your head, I don't know why. Stare at the photo for a minute and you'll know what I mean.

On top of all that, it is an amazing photograph and I have no idea how the photographer captured so much emotion in it.

Cari.

Logical Thinking and Ideas

These two subjects tie in together- in a way, the logical thinking is like a shoe that fits on the ideas perfectly, but I do think that the sock is, say red and the shoe is green- they contrast eachother.

Think of logic (the ideas come in later) like a circuit with one battery and one bulb. The more "bulbs" (ideas) you add, the dimmer the ideas become as you pay less attention to each one.If you add more batteries (or apply more logic to the idea), the idea gets brighter, more logical and works better.  It will only work if the circuit is complete. That's just a metaphor, but I think it does work.

Another metaphor for ideas is this- think of a large white canvas everytime you are think of something new. This is your "brain". Sometimes you decide to paint on it (deliberately coming up with ideas) and sometimes you lose control over your hand and splat paint all over it (when ideas just pop into your head).  Sometimes, you have an incomplete painting and revisit a canvas. Sometimes, you get a new canvas. It depends on whether you are coming up with a new idea or building on an old one. And sometimes, you have no idea what to paint.

Cari- I may build on this post later on.

Saying Sorry is one thing, but Apologizing....Well, that's a whole new story

Have you noticed that when someone owes you an apology, they sometimes just say sorry rather than actually apologising. It seems strange, but there's a huge difference.
Apologies always happen when there is time to say a thorough apology, and the people apologising leave time for you to reply. They are prepared and thought of.
"Sorries" or the fake apology is said in a tone that may seem that they have no time, or they did nothing wrong. It usually happens in the middle of something, and sometimes, the "apologiser" just walks away, not leaving you time to answer, and you are probably left gaping. An insincere apology is worse than not apologising at all. Which, depending on what it is, is quite bad.

I have had this apply to me recently (recently being last month) and an insincere apology just leaves you feeling worse. What's the point if you don't mean it, anyway? It makes me wonder why people apologize like that even when it makes others feel worse.

Cari.

Writer's Block

Hello! I've tackled the necklaces and the apple crumble was delicious. Today, I am blogging about writer's block, because , surprise, surprise, I am currently experiencing it. And it is....interesting.
I have literally been thinking "I really want to blog today but I don't know what to do it on" all the time. Believe me, I have tried asking friends, and clicking the "next blog" button millions of times. The fascinatingly interesting thing about writers block is that you stop thinking "oh, this will sound stupid" and write whatever you can think of as you desperately want to write something. Anything. So thats what i'm doing. And it is actually quite easy, now. It sounds cliche but it flows. That is the hidden bright side of writer's block, or the light at the end of the tunnel. Writer's block can be annoying- you have to write an essay and you have no idea where to start, for example. But it also gives you to the "oppourtunity" to write like this. "Like this" meaning without stopping to think "should I use meticulous or orderly to describe something neat?" Which of course no-one will answer for you, so it leads into....well, writer's block. I have  learned so much from this post. I never realied what a gift writer's block was. And i'm not being sarcastic. But now i've thought about it in an optimistic way (yes, the glass is half-full about writer's block), I have found out it's not actually that bad. Wow. I've written all this when I supposedly had writer's block.

Time for a paragraph break or this will go on literally forever (maybe not).

Cari, who is posting a link Now, so click here!

Oh, forget it.

After lunch today I really wanted this blackberry and apple pie or whatever it was made of.
But then my mum and my younger brother started cooking apple crumble. And I thought, "No way, I am not having two desserts" as I have already had a (probiotic, taste-the-goodness, fat-free) froen yoghurt.

It's a little like last night when I tried to untangle a necklace (and admittedly failed), went to bed, and forgot about it. And until now, "oh, forget it" is all i've thought since.
So I guess I won't be having an apple and blackberry pie.

This seemingly small, pointless (almost. I love apple and blackberry pie) and silly scenario pops up every day, and it is, whether we notice it or not, something we spend ages (in total) on, only to think "I can't do this, forget it."

Which leads onto my next point. I bought some fortune cookies yesterday. Since then i've been devouring both the fortune and the cookie. One fortune said "if you give in, you give up." Which admittedly is slightly side-tracking from the point, but I gave up on the necklaces. I shall try again this evening. Then again, I don't mind about the apple crumble, but I didn't start saying "I WANT THE APPLE AND BLACKBERRY PIE!" (fortunately). I guess I just went with it.

Cari.

BS (blog script): I rarely do links anymore. Promise i'll have one soon. Can smell apple crumble cooking!

One thing to do Another.

This statement annoys me. I mean, it's like saying you have to...watch (or slavishly copy) another dancer if you want to dance. You don't. Or you have to read good books to write good stories. It helps, but not neccesarily defines whether you can write well or not. In fact, it could be meaningless to do so, because immersing yourself in a sea of books that you don't understand the meanings of is...pointless.

I have done many things well that you can "only do if you..." without doing the thing that you have to do in oreder to do that...that may be a little confusing.

The point is that this statement is completely, utterly untrue. Please comment if you agree, disagree, or your general experience with this saying.

Cari.

I'm Back!

Hi! I'm finally back, and holiday was amazing! Just a quick post to let you know I haven't stopped blogging! Just wanted to say that I will resume blogging normally very soon!

Cari.

Change

I am a very open person. Which means I like change. So I was thinking, to just write down some more thoughts and feelings in my blog. Instead of the types of post I do right now. Except that now isn't really a good time. Because I'm, er, going on holiday. So....my first blog when I come back will reflect what I have just said in this post (unless I change my mind yet again). And I might change the writing to something more...ledgible.

Cari. 

Wanting

I want (or have wanted, these change all the time) so many things. And sometimes, they haven't been satisfied. But want is insatiable. When you get something you want, you admire it for a day or two. And then...a better, more contemporary, newer one comes out! And you want that instead. get that, and then........it's never-ending cycle. Until you realize it itsn't worth it.

The aim of this post is to help people realize that there is a cycle of want, as I call it. And when you get something you want, relish it because it's a waste to just start desperatly wanting something else.

Cari, who admits she has this problem...occasionally.

Rumored

People have problems with this all the time. Celebrities may say something misintepreted, only to find it plastered all over the Daily Mail the next day. And some break down, some stay strong. And some just show very convncingly  that it doesn't bother them.

Everyone knows what I mean. There is no way someone can live a life without this getting to them, whether they've spread a rumor, they've had one spread about them, or they've heard on ethat makes them feel...guilty in a way. Or it's a complete misunderstanding. How annoying.

I have found "mis" comes up a lot when speaking of rumors. Misunderstood, misintpretated. It happens. But because this is sometimes the case, try not to let it get to you. That much, anyway. But a big percentage of what you hear is rumored.

Cari.

Determination

Everyone has an ambition, whether they admit it or not. Life isn't worth living if you have no dreams and no aims, simply because you won't enjoy life or look forward to anything if you don't.

This post was inspired by, yes, a chain email. I was skimming through it when I came across this:
Don't laugh at anyone's dreams. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
And I have faith in that statement.

Determination determines (pun not intended) just how far you go with your ambition. If you really want it, and you really are determined, you'll fulfill your dreams. You'll surprise yourself.

Good luck!
Cari.